Wednesday, January 20, 2010
It is almost February and I have not been able to shake the end of the year wtf blues. I need to make some major personal changes in how I live my life. But in the am when I feel like crap, I allow myself to be overwhelmed by the minor inconveniences that are part of life. I don't want to be ther person I am now. I am so much better than that. I have more to offer than that. The people on the outside see me in a different light. They see me as someone who has it all together and when i try to explain that I am not all that, they dismiss me like I am just looking for a compliment, or that nothing is good enough for me. But that is not it at all. I want to wake up each day with a feeling of purpose. I want to tackle the things that will make me feel whole. I really want to handle all the things that are a part of daily life without feeling overwhelmed. I need to be happy if i just do everything ok and not great. I need to be able to live in the moment and not feel that I am letting life pass me by.